lloyd villin — romy wilson

and what exactly would we celebrate? my new official status as your second choice?

are we really pretending you'd spend that day with me if he was still around?

you're disappointed? thanks for resting my case

GO

TO

HELL

VILLIN

oh and enjoy your mediocre night tomorrow.  

that's it? that's all you've got to say?

good talk  

don't worry! you can have a mediocre night too! why don't you call him? i'm sure he'd wouldn't mind a pity skype date with you!

oh please you're the one responsible for this "good talk", not me.

spending the night with another girl, AGAIN ?
choosing another girl over me, AGAIN ?
AND FOR VALENTINE'S DAY LLOYD.
soooooo you're putting me as your second choice, not the other way around

and your jealousy is not an excuse. you can't hide behind it.
not when he's not here anymore.
so go at this stupid party with this stupid girl. have fun.
after all, you've promised her, right ?  

great. now you know what it feels like.

you know what? fuck you for saying that. i cut out my best friend for you. i've put everything on the line for you, including my sanity and self-worth. i've been fighting for you for seven months straight. don't ever try to dispute my commitment.

jealousy? god, romy, how can you be so blind? this isn't jealousy, this is self-fucking-preservation. you're turning this around, you can't blame me for my insecurities when you're the one who's cultivated them for months. you made your bed.

look, who gives a shit about some lame holiday? come with me, we can stay a couple hours then go somewhere else. can you do this for me?

you know i'm willing to make sacrifices but i'm sick of giving and never getting anything back

of course i'd rather be with you, how can you even question that?

so what ? are you punishing me ? that's what it is ? he is gone and now you are regretting everything ? me on top of your list ?
NOT FAIR. you cannot do this to me. not now. because... NO. that's just not fair.

I care and you should have known it.
but fine. compromise, right ? that's what it's called ?
WAIT. couple hours as in  m u l t i p l e  hours ?!

ok no, arg, fine.
i'll go with you at this party but then we go somewhere else. i don't want to spend all night there. so please, help me god, villin, we leave at some point.

that last text was so hard to write ? should have definitely begun by this one